It is not strong enough. Not strong enough to build up solid walls. Not strong enough to hold on to it. Not strong enough to believe in it. Faith is a funny thing. You cannot see it. It is something you feel. Not something you teach. But God knows feeling is not a rationnal thing. Feeling is a funny thing. You cannot see it. It is something you live. Not something you teach. But God knows living is not a rationnal thing. Living is a funny thing. And I’m not sure God Himself knows how to define it.

Funny. That’s the word for it. And yet, it lacks laughters. It lacks joy. Because it lacks faith. But how do you find faith ? How do you trust ? What can you believe in ?

I suppose only God can answer that.

But God is a funny thing. You cannot see it. It is something you should have faith in.

And I don’t have faith. And I don’t trust my feelings anymore. And I don’t know what to think of life.

And I sure as hell don’t believe in God.

© Texte de Béryl Huba-Mylek